True North

Why is it so wrong to still be so sad?

My husband died, my (his) dog died,

Our retirement dreams died.

It's been 3 years.

Isn't it still ok to be sad?

I think so.

I can't imagine wrapping this up with a bow on top.

I can't imagine what normal feels like anymore.

I want everything back...

Him, her, our RV, our future, .....my life.

Moving on is like treading through cement, still.

I. Don't. Know. How. To. Move. On.

Move on?...... to what?!?

True north is gone.

I don't know what way to go.

There isn't a word to describe this loneliness that I feel.

What, where, when is the way forward?

How do I LIVE again?